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| Ugh, feels like forever since i wrote in this. Let me just say, Valentines day (weekend) was incredible. I seriously love Aaron so much. I could never see myself without him. He got me a promise ring, bouquet of red roses, DDR video game, dinner, and earphones. (I've been complaining that I need new ones). Friday, I had a 1/2 day, so my bestfriend Tabitha and I went to the mall to get something small for our boyfriends. We actually got them the same sweatshirt, only in different colors, haha. We're planning on telling them to wear them when we go on a double date, haha. Then, Aaron, me, and my parents went down o Indianapolis for a car show. It was so much fun. I had an incredible day. Saturday, Aaron picked me up at 1 and we went to his house to hang out before that night. We had some love time, which was absolutely amazing. Gah. Then, we went to Wal Mart to see his mom. (She works there.) Gosh, I missed her, lol. I haven't seen her since the time I got grounded from staying at his house. Then, we went to Chillis and ate dinner. That was fun, and I got stuffed, lol. Then, we went to the mall. He bought himself an awesome pair of jeans. I got two shirts and an awesome necklace. Then, we went back to his house to cuddle and he took me home. Sunday- ATE ALL DAY! Ugh, I was so lazy. I did nothing, but then Tab came over at like, 6 and left at like, 830. We just hung out for a little while. It was like a wasted day, haha. Today- I just got done working out for a little. I'm getting ready to get into the shower. Aaron will be here around 330. We're going to play DDR. He thinks he's going to beat me, hahahahaha. It's funny. 
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| today was weird. i went home from school at noon. idk what was wrong with me. i couldn't focus in any of my classes and i started getting cramps. i came home and binged on chocolate kisses. fucking great. in the first time in a very long while, i purged. it was a terrible feeling. ugh, i'm hoping it was just a spur of the moment kind of thing. i absolutely can't tell anyone about it because they'll tell my parents and i'll have to go through that whole deal again. no thanks. i've been feeling so depressed lately. i think it's because i'm getting ready to start. i just don't feel pretty. i worked out today when i got home and of course my dad got upset because i came home "sick". but he doesn't understand that working out cures cramps. but, whatever. i wouldn't expect him to. i think i'm slowly creeping down into the hole of where i once was. it was a very dark road. long and lonely. i hope i never go back there. i will try my damndest to go down the right path. and it doesn't help that my dad came home drunk today from his friends house. i was going to do the dishes to be nice but he insists on doing it, like i was doing it wrong. whatever. you can do it. ugh, i just wish he would stop the drinking. it's not only hurting him, it's hurting our family. hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. 
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| Ughness. I keep slacking on writing in here. I suppose I'll just tell you about this weekend. Friday- I left school at 2, came home to potty, eat a little something, then went to get gas and pick up my mom at work. I had a doctor's appointment. I'm getting on "the pill". I can't have them until Monday though. Something about our insurance. I also got my ringworm checked out. Which reminds me, I need to put that cream on. haha. After all that, Aaron and I went to the mall and got a new video game. We then rented the movie 300. It isn't due back until Wendesday so, we're waiting to watch it. Well, we played some video games. I suck at the driving ones, also at the baseball one. But, I'm not too horrible at the basketball one. I've never really played any video games other than mario and donkey kong. It was a fun time. I was annoying the hell out of Aaron. I always get this outbreak of hyperness. Poor guy. Saturday- AWESOME DAY! I woke up, went down to vaccuum Grammy's house, got $5. Came home and took a shower, then went shopping with momma. I got a black vest and a black and red plaid shirt/dress. I might wear that on Valentine's day. I don't know. Then, we went to look for prom dresses. I found my love. It's a very light blue, floor length and halter. I need to get it altered because of how short I am. Also, the straps are far too long. But, I absolutely love it! Mom and I then went grocery shopping. Got lots of things I can eat now that I don't eat meat. (which that had been super hard, I keep wanting to have a turkey wrap, but I've stuck to it.) I heard it gets easier in time. Then, Aaron and I went to the basketball game. Ugh, sometimes I hate going out in public with him, because I always compare myself to all these little, pretty girls running around. I don't know why I do it, but it just makes me feel like complete shit afterwards. It's so unhealthy. But, anyways. Our boys basketball team is absolutely terrible, so we left. We came back and cuddled. Today- I'll be going to the gym soon and cleaning the house. It's just a lazy day. 
the picture of aaron and i at the game lastnight. | | |
| Yesterday was Aaron and I's one year. I made him a scrapbook with a 2 full front and back letter and I burnt him the new Slipknot cd. Then, we went to pick up Mike and Tabitha (my bestfriend and her boyfriend). We were STARVING. Mike just got off work, he works at Taco bell, but aaron and i were craving that. he didn't want that, so i was like whatever, we'll just go to burger king. we get there and the d-bag doesn't even eat. wtf. but, anyways. i got a veggie burger (i'm trying to be a vegetarian). it was quite good. :) then, we were on our way to the slipknot, trivium, and coheed and cambria concert. trivium and coheed weren't interesting me. i was watching the people more than i was watching them. slipknot was hella crazy. best performers i've ever seen. crazy ness. it kinda sucked though because whenever aaron and mike get together, aaron turns into a different person. he kinda treats me like shit. he realized this and he said it was because we had to wait so long to leave and he wanted to leave right when he got to my house. he said that's why he was being an idiot. no, it's every effing time they're together. tabitha and i agreed on this. well, i didn't get home until about 130 am. i had aaron stay the night because the roads were getting bad and i didn't want him driving home. he had to get up at 5 am to go to work. i lucked out and got a two hour delay! i was so happy. well, today, i just dressed down. it was kind of a pointless day at school. i have 35 minutes in every class, so i didn't really even do much. then, i came home at 2 because i thought i had a doctors appointment, but it turns out it got cancelled. i took about an hour nap, then went to the gym. i took a kick boxing class. it was so much fun. i sweat like no other in there. the trainer/coach is crazy! she reminds me of a more fit and older fergie. i'd kill for her body. then, i went tanning. i called aaron once i got out of the tanning bed. i probably shouldn't have because he really just pissed me off and made me not want to talk to him. i always have to effin call him. he never does. well, anyways, he answers and i ask him how his nap was. i couldn't understand his answer, so i said, "what?" and he goes, "FINE!". Then, i was quiet for a while because he just pissed me off and i asked him if he wanted to do pilates with me tomorrow and i didn't expect him to want to, but since he treated me like shit yesterday, i thought he'd be down, but no. after that, he didn't even talk, so i was like, whatever, i'll text you when i get home. now he's all being nice and shit. well, whatever. i think i'm just pmsing and don't want to be around anyone right now. 
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| So, lastnight was pretty amazing. I finally got to see Aaron. We went to the mall, I saw two of my friends and chatted with them. Then, we walked the mall for a while. He took me to Texas roadhouse, we pigged out like you wouldn't believe. Then, we made love in the back of his car at Meijers parking lot. Gosh, I love that boy. My dad came home at 6 am this morning, completely trashed. He says I have no respect for him. No fucking shit. If you're going to act like a fucking teenager, when you're 50, I WONT have any for you. Ugh, he pisses me off so much sometimes. Why does he treat my mom like this? I'm going to the gym in a little bit when Aaron gets here. I need to work out for at least 2 hours. I ate horribly this weekend. I'm updating my ipod to get me motivated. I colored my hair, too. It looks AMAZING. Well, that's about it. My life is boring . | | |
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